Mindset

Last night was the first time that I told myself when I got into bed, that this isn't a time to think about sexual thoughts.  Just because I'm in bed doesn't mean I have to think about sex.  It was the first time I can remember that I went to be thinking about how to relax.   This morning I woke up and after some initial emotional disturbance, I honest feel really...calm...almost normal (I guess)...first time in a long time I've felt like this...no higher and than lows....just "level".