Friday, November 4, 2011
Last night was the first time that I told myself when I got into bed, that this isn't a time to think about sexual thoughts. Just because I'm in bed doesn't mean I have to think about sex. It was the first time I can remember that I went to be thinking about how to relax. This morning I woke up and after some initial emotional disturbance, I honest feel really...calm...almost normal (I guess)...first time in a long time I've felt like this...no higher and than lows....just "level".