I started this abstinence diet when I was already sick. But its 10 days so I don't know if I am still sick or I'm sick and suffer withdrawal. I'm so tired. I left my office early today (good thing I am self-employed). However, loneliness is kicking in. I work along, and the brief interaction I did have today with people really brightened my mood. Time to look for a job where I can interact with people.
On my way home I stopped by the store. I saw a very attractive woman. When I got home I felt a great deal of anger toward her. Oddly enough this is because she has something I want...herself. But maybe because I'm jealous of her ability to express her sexuality through her dress, walk and everything she does.
The only outlet of sexual expression men have is an actually sexual act. So maybe that is why so many of us turn to porn. The only other options our strip clubs or prostitution but the truth there is something very depressing about going to a strip club and a lap dance is rather unfulfilling. I haven't been with a prostitute but I assume that sexual expression with a prostitute isn't that liberating.