Last night when i was having urges I had an amazing experience praying to G-d for help, very spiritual experience. The rest of the night I had no issues.
This morning started out well but then my mind went hunting and I allowed it to do so. A small fantasy led it to others and finally thought of a woman who I desire enough that I started fantasying and edging by grinding into my bed. Spent way to much time doing that this morning. I didn't cum. When I came on line to write this I started "surfing" and I did have an urge to look at porn.
Today is 26 no pm(f) and 29 of no O. I am a little disappointed Reading about guys who relapse well into the process makes me nervous. During the sexual urges my mind gets so compulsive and obsessed on the fantasy they're isn't enough room my to remember about all the progress I've been making.