Couldn't sleep tonight. its 4:15 in the mornings. One of the reasons has to be my late night computer use. A doctor told me so but I couldn't pull myself away. I had to add a blog post, etc.
I did fantasized tonight. A first it was ok, it felt great to think about sex. I noticed my erection was somewhat fuller and that it took a longer time to go down than in the past. But it slippery sloped into edging. I almost ejactulated but I stopped. I actually yelled out my self, IF YOU WANT TO DO THIS THEN DO IT AND STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. I got up to pee, I definitely peed out semen. I currently have a "relieved" feeling.
I don't think this counts as a relapse.